Sunday, June 20, 2010
357. @ 8:58 pm
Where are you when I need you?
I feel so disgusted with myself that I need to talk to someone but... will you understand anyway?
I don't know why I feel this way and I'm afraid of everything that's happening right now.
I've been trying to busy myself with work and secular music and fervently praying in Tongues but I still ended up slumped down on my bedroom's parquet flooring and just crying my heart out to Jesus because it felt as if nobody could help and like nobody was willing to listen even though that may not have been the case.
I want to jog, skip, pump, sit-up, stretch and exercise all the kilograms gained away but my throat feels sore and I feel lethargic... should I just sleep and hope that everything will disappear instead since you're not replying?
I feel empty, worried... and so unlike me.
Would you like to know exactly what's going on in my mind right now?
I know I would because I'm confused and this is the first time I've ever felt this way.
Daddy, help me.