Friday, September 03, 2010
384. @ 11:49 pm
What do you do when you realise that the one person you actually trusted has been lying to you not once, not twice, but a trillion times?
I can't believe I was foolish enough to fall for the same trick over and over and over again, but somehow I think the same scene is going to re-enact itself anyway.
I don't know what Jesus is trying to tell me - maybe our friendship's just not in its right season now, and maybe I should stay away from you.
I'm not gonna try asking, because I know you're not in the least bit interested. I'm not gonna try talking, because from these past months of experience I know nothing's gonna change. And I'm not gonna try waiting, because I know for a fact that you're not psychic, and you don't bother to read my mind anyway.
It was indeed painful to put up a false front, but it was worth it, because no one noticed these tears which cannot be seen, and nobody realised the shock - permanent.
Don't you worry, I will never let my insecurity surface, nor will I allow it to interfere with your raging hormones ever again.
People say I am weird. People say I am crazy.
I say I am blind.