Thursday, September 30, 2010
405. @ 10:26 pm
Are you just selfishly paranoid that we'll all become skinnier than you and will thus beat you in achieving your goal?
What a fool.
Wednesday, September 29, 2010
404. @ 10:37 pm
I believe that Jesus is working a miracle in me :)
Tuesday, September 28, 2010
403. @ 9:56 pm
"If I'm sin²x, you must be my cos²x because, together, we are 1!"
I thought that was pretty hilarious :)
Sunday, September 26, 2010
402. @ 10:10 pm
I struggle inside.
I think that people who secretly study a lot shouldn't have the right to go around telling others that they don't study and acting all smart because I don't believe in such ridiculous stories. They're just wrong.
I'm tired again.
Wednesday, September 22, 2010
401. @ 11:12 pm
I place
all my trust in You :)
Sunday, September 19, 2010
400D. @ 9:50 pm
Sorry. I just decided to take up the milestone 400th post. :P
398. @ 8:17 am
You'd never know when I suffer in silence.
Because I've been suffering in silence and you still don't know.
Saturday, September 18, 2010
397. @ 11:33 pm
Daddy, I partake of Your super high metabolism rate every single time I eat in Your name, Amen.
Tuesday, September 14, 2010
396. @ 9:04 pm
Why can't you just be content with what you already have?
395. @ 12:09 am
I am not dying, contrary to what you believe and proclaim.
Monday, September 13, 2010
394. @ 10:40 pm
You... talked to her?
You talked to her.
She talked to you.
Whatever.
393. @ 10:35 pm
Why can't you see that I really need you to at least try to understand the current situation I'm facing?
392. @ 9:32 pm
Daddy, I'm afraid again.
... I don't know how to continue.
391. @ 9:27 pm
I don't think I ever told you how special you are. I realise you're the only person I'm truly comfortable to eat in front of because you don't pressurise me like how everybody else does, whether deliberately or not, to reach a certain target just so that I don't disappoint their assumed expectations of me finishing up a decent portion of my food and also so that they won't suspect anything wrong with me. You don't
try to seem concerned about my well-being by 'forcing' me to eat faster and you don't attempt to act like you know how I feel with words like, "Dione, don't force yourself if you can't finish your food, okay?" Although you do tell me to eat more, it's as if you accept my snail pace and the amount I am only able to consume in the end. The fact that I can eat as much, or rather as little, as I want when I'm with you creates an impression on the inside of me that you actually understand what I'm going through. Even if that isn't the case and you claim that your reactions are just like everyone else's, I can sense that you're wonderfully different. I don't know if anyone realises how much this whole issue is really quite a struggle for me but the silence you harbour towards my admitted idiosyncrasies is just about everything I need right now.
I want to run away.
Sunday, September 12, 2010
390. @ 11:45 pm
What if they're about you
-don't-know-who?
Friday, September 10, 2010
389. @ 10:52 pm
I don't want to destroy it!
(DESTROY AFTER READING) @ 10:51 pm
Hi Warrant Officer.
I'm going to sleep now. Goodnight. You'd better dream of me tonight :):):) x1000
From the lowly staff sergeant -.-
387. @ 10:50 pm
I don't know how to advise people who seek your advice but refuse to listen.
Thursday, September 09, 2010
386. @ 10:15 pm
Jesus, help. I don't know what's wrong with me anymore.
Saturday, September 04, 2010
385. @ 9:04 am
Daddy, am I that easily replaced?
-
I won't bother seeking your confirmation because I've learnt that the words you try to appease me with probably don't mean a thing at all.
Friday, September 03, 2010
384. @ 11:49 pm
What do you do when you realise that the one person you actually trusted has been lying to you not once, not twice, but a trillion times?
I can't believe I was foolish enough to fall for the same trick over and over and over again, but somehow I think the same scene is going to re-enact itself anyway.
I don't know what Jesus is trying to tell me - maybe our friendship's just not in its right season now, and maybe I should stay away from you.
I'm not gonna try asking, because I know you're not in the least bit interested. I'm not gonna try talking, because from these past months of experience I know nothing's gonna change. And I'm not gonna try waiting, because I know for a fact that you're not psychic, and you don't bother to read my mind anyway.
It was indeed painful to put up a false front, but it was worth it, because no one noticed these tears which cannot be seen, and nobody realised the shock - permanent.
Don't you worry, I will never let my insecurity surface, nor will I allow it to interfere with your raging hormones ever again.
People say I am weird. People say I am crazy.
I say I am blind.