Thursday, April 29, 2010
316. @ 11:05 pm
I think this is the first time I'm crying on my birthday as far as I can remember. Five times, in fact, and really hard at that.
I didn't think this year would be special in this way but I really have to thank God that it hasn't occurred before because then the amount of hurt would have been magnified a thousandfold. Praise Jesus this has only happened once.
Maybe I won't be able to sleep tonight. Maybe I'll suffer from a headache until 2am in the morning, just like last night, but maybe I'm just thinking too much.
And maybe I'm really quite the horrible friend who only cares about indulging in self-pity to care about the many others around her. I'm sorry I have to apologise so many times over and I'm sorry that I don't even know what I'm apologising for any longer.
It's 12.01am - not my birthday anymore.