Saturday, November 07, 2009
161. @ 10:23 pm
山田K! You've been an amazing friend to me because you're really one of the few people who do not actually mind sharing your true feelings and experiences with me and that's what makes me feel that you're someone I can sincerely trust because I'm not afraid that you won't want the best for me :)
I'm sure I'm not the only person in this world who feels the same way so, on behalf of all the people who share the same sentiments as me, we honestly love you very, very, very much! I know that you know that I treasure our friendship a lot and, no matter how cliche this may sound, it hurts to see you having to suffer so much just because of such a (somewhat) unimportant and trivial matter. I know that I don't want to see you doing something unhealthy which doesn't edify your soul well :(
I'm just going to say what's from the bottom of my heart ♥ Even though I'm supposed to be the person aiding you in achieving your goal, try not to do what you feel is uncomfortable, k? I trust that you know your limits. You don't have to try pleasing or helping everyone get what they want. After all, they probably don't understand how you really feel. I may sound stupid and selfish advising you like this but I guess it's the wisest thing to do now to prevent yourself from getting too stressed up over everything that's currently happening. You're ultimately the only person who can save yourself from all the distress so it's important not to condemn yourself. Don't be influenced by the world. Be optimistic, alright? All of us love you just the way you are, don't you agree? Don't torture yourself... because d-ing was never meant to be a sad thing to do :)
In the end, I will still support your final decision but just remember that only insane freaks would want to see you miserable... and I know for sure that I'm sane and anti-retarded :)
I pray that you'll have only good slumbers and no more nightmares anymore because I believe that you don't deserve emotional traumas like these. Whatever it is, know that you have me as a friend to talk to anytime. I will try my best to help you because you were the one who first taught me the importance and role of a true friend :)
Blessed night, dear. I love you ♥